Jan 12, 2010

So small

The Monday night’s program was beautiful. So beautiful that my words would only taint its perfection no matter how meticulous my delineation would be.

So I would just keep it brief.

I adore the wrap up from the program director about the disclosure of our true colors in time of trials and the importance of being the lead in every possible chance.

It encouraged us to strive for more while still retaining the beauty of the patience.

Fastabiqul Khairat . Fasabrun jamil. As-sabiqun was-sabiqun.

The most poignant part would be when the Imam did the unfamiliar qiraah while leading the Solatul Hajjah.

It’s hard to grasp the meaning because much of the words did not actually make sense (from the way of the usual Arabic learning) but in the senseless of it I find myself a new nuance that inevitably made me feel so small.

The Imam has actually mastered at least two types of qiraah (should be more) while I myself still struggle on memorizing even quarter of the usual qiraah.

I don’t regret my inability but I took the blame for not pushing myself further.

Still more to be learned that is. 

"Don't blame anyone, never complain of anyone or anything
Because basically you have made of your life what you wanted.
Accept the difficulties of edifying yourself
And the worth of starting to correct your character.

The triumph of the true man arises from the ashes of his mistakes.
Never complain of your loneliness or your luck.
Face it with courage and accept it.
Somehow, they are the result of your acts and
It shows that you'll always win.
Don't feel frustrated of your own failures, neither unload them to someone else.
Accept yourself now or you'll go on justifying yourself like a child.

Remember that any time is good to start
And that no time is so good to give up.

Don't forget that the cause of your present is your past,
As the cause of your future will be your present.
Learn from the brave, from the strong,
From who doesn't accept situations
From who will live in spite of everything.
Think less of your problems and more of your work.
Learn to arise from your pain,
And to be greater than the greatest of your obstacles.

Look at the mirror of yourself and you'll be free and strong
And you'll stop being a puppet of circumstances.
For you yourself are your destiny.
Wake up and stare at the sun in the mornings and breathe the sun of dawn.
You're part of the strength of your life now,
Rise up, fight, walk, be sure and you'll win in life."

 //Pablo Neruda (with the last stanzas omitted)

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